November 2006
Monthly Archive
Uncategorized28 Nov 2006 10:48 pm
Craziness
Mojo - 4
Workout - 3
Health - 5
Attitude - 3.5
Motivation - 3.5
When I sleep, I often wake up during the night and find that one of my arms is asleep… As far as I can remember, I’m usually laying on it funny when I find it this way… maybe I need to pay more attention to it… The point of the story… I woke up the other night, and not only was my hand numb/tingly… I couldn’t move it! I have to say that this is #2 for freaking out… right under going blind in my right eye for a minute or so… As I’m writing this… I decided to look it up… I guess I need to take my ass to a doctor and get checked out… I really don’t remember this happening much before I started working out… but now it’s pretty much a nightly occurrence. Blood clots, spurs, and inflammation are all causes for this. I’m hoping that it is from some sort of work out induced inflammation… I’m gonna start logging when this happens.
The second thing wanted to talk about is adrenaline… Last week when I got jacked for my change… I really paid attention to how my body felt… I noticed I get this burning sensation in my chest, and actually… I’ve noticed that this feeling is there in some level almost all of the time. Adrenaline… Or so I think it is. What I have set out to confirm, is; Is this the force behind the snappage? Can it narrow your thinking? It’s hard to explain… but when I go through one of those episodes…and it has been a while, so I don’t know if I can remember it exactly, but the thought of consequence to my actions is nowhere to be found… but ironically… my rage is usually the consequence to someone else’s actions. So I started to look for information, as I am writing this of course, and guess what is the first thing I see…Adrenaline is a vasoconstrictor…my arm falling asleep… I need to get my blood pressure checked lol. Not sure that is part of the cause, because adrenaline also increases blood flow in muscle tissue.
To no surprise, adrenaline does have mental effects, but I haven’t found the exact wording I am looking for. During my research, I found myself going off on a tangent… But that’s another day’s topic.
I need to…
Find out if there is a way I can monitor my adrenaline levels. I have to think that having a constant high level of adrenaline cannot be good for me. Stress??? No! Anxiety… I like stress… I just hate worrying about shit.
Balance
Uncategorized26 Nov 2006 10:14 pm
Allow ME to chop with you guys/gals for a min.
Mojo – 4
Workout – 5
Health – 5
Attitude – 4.0
Motivation – 4.0
Friday Friday Friday… Thanksgiving part 2 was upon us… We got all of the work at the office for the day done early (I’ll have to tell you about the experiment sometime), so I got to get home and start on the turkey making process. If you check out the Flickr account under the “Holidays” photo set you will find visual proof that the turkey turned out great… Makes my mouth water just looking at it!
Saturday… went to a party full of 16 year old girls… I’m not sure what school the birthday girl goes to, but the guy girl ratio is absolutely ridiculous… had to be 5:1. And these dudes are outside looking at their cars. I took some pictures there as well, and will get them uploaded soon.
Today I went out to some place in Dousman, 40 mins away, where you walk around this big… HUGE field and pick out then cut down your own Christmas tree – for the same price as the one you could get at Lowes… pre-cut and 10mins away. After getting it home, as I thought, the thing was just a tad too tall… had to be close to 10’. After trimming the bottom and top, I achieved a perfect fit… or did I? Wider than I thought the tree is; so getting to fit in the living room with the furniture and the TV that I am so greatly opposed to having in there, will be a challenge indeed. I have given up for the evening, because the day’s events have gotten the best of me. I will get it figured out and the pics updated in the next couple of days.
Stay Tuned…
Uncategorized24 Nov 2006 11:03 pm
In A Nutshell
Mojo – 3.5
Workout – 0
Health – 5
Attitude – 4.0
Motivation – 4.0
Where do I start, where do I begin.
Wednesday; Productive day at work, and everyone was excited about thanksgiving, including me. I love the chance to get out and visit a lot of people whom I don’t get to see very often. I also enjoy going home, and listening to my pop reminisce about his days of growing up. Though I have heard most of them about 100 times, you still can’t help but laugh till tears are rolling down your cheeks; to hear him laugh in it self, is enough to get anyone going. Big Al.
Wanna go to the Bucks game…Canceled… Hang out at home…I guess I’m going to Chicago. I dint think is was going to go through, but it did. No need to tell you that it was a long night. We went to Reserve, Crow Bar, and Visions. All in all I have to say that it was a good time (Flickr coming soon), even though I got a few drinks snuck on me. Of-course I ended up driving everyone home which means I didn’t get to enjoy that 1 hour nap like everyone else…
Sorry for the interruption… I just spent the last 30 mins on the phone, talking to Joe… I have had several people ask me how he’s doing, and the answer is Great. Alive and healthy. Not sure if he was trying to keep it quite or not, but since he didn’t tell me not to… He’ll be home sometime in late April of next year. Just for a bit though… he has to head back in early May.
Where was I??? I ended up getting home about 6am, and woke up around 8… Redbull. Thursday. Went to the gym, and figured I could grab a nap afterwards… It was such a nice day out, that I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I went to the lake and figured I’d try to get the kite up one last time this year, but there wasn’t much wind… luckly I had my camera with me. Got some pretty good pictures… they took me back a little bit… spent a lot of time down there when I was younger.
I stopped at the Brookshire residence on the way home, and said hello to my extended family, who I neglect to see very much :( Sorry, I will get better. The troublesome one wasn’t there, but I’d like to say congratulations to her on her new job.
Dinner was excellent as always. Mom and Pop did a bang up job on the food… there was mashed potatoes so I didn’t have to hurt anyone… and I got go kick up on the couch for a bit, and let the turkey take control… The Itis.
By 7pm, the night before had caught up to me… I was so tired, I had no choice but to go home and surrender myself to the night.
Uncategorized21 Nov 2006 09:56 pm
WorkOut - 5
Am I learning how to deal with the anger?
Am I turning soft?
Naaa… I’m still on edge… one wrong move…. pow, zoom, straight to the moon.
Uncategorized21 Nov 2006 11:10 am
What the Fuck!
Mojo - 2
Workout –0 I’m sure it will be 5
Health – 5
Attitude – 5 all bad
Motivation – 5 to kill
It’s funny how the day can go from great to shit in a heart beat… it’s 9:34am.
Got out of bed @ 15 to 8… had breakfast, took a shower, and I’m thinking about the things I have to get done today - prioritizing. Where is my ring… I think I see it on the night stand next to the bed… It’s a quarter… I pick it up and put it in the 5 gallon water jug I have in the next room… the sound of metal against plastic when it hits the bottom… This past weekend, at the dinner party, we were talking about how change accumulates and how much it adds up to, in such a small container… I pick up the jar, it’s light, I look into it… my hands tremble as I type… there a couple of things that set me off in this world… that I know about… I think I inherited them. Disrespect of me, my family, or my property… I don’t like it when motherfuckers bully the weak either.
I have been through this shit before, and I am sooooo funckin done with it. 41st street, McKinley… Right, Wrong. Circumstance, Consequence. This one definitely goes in the WTF pile… I’m not religious, but somebody pray for me… and if that doesn’t work for me… pray for him.
I can’t, for the life of me, understand how anyone can think this shit is kosher. You put a motherfucker up in your own home, and he steals from you? The fucked up thing about it… I know in his mind… he doesn’t think it’s wrong. I know this, but I have not the ability to understand; I can’t. Eating food that you didn’t buy, using my cologne, taking the change out of my fuckin change jar; it’s all stealing. If it’s not yours, DON’T FUCKIN TOUCH IT. Ask! God I can’t wait for this shit to be over, and NEVER AGAIN…EVER!
I’m not going to estimate how much money was in there, but I can tell you there is now less than 10 bucks in there… all nickels. FFFFFFF*****
This shit isn’t good for me… I’m now on my circumstantially induced man period. I think it’s best I distance myself from the staff today.
I should have a killer workout tonight.
Life is like writing without the delete or backspace key.
Sorry for the language kids.
I found my ring
Forgot my lunch.
It’s 9:43am
Robo – I’m about to go fuckin – nutz
Uncategorized20 Nov 2006 10:28 pm
Today!
Mojo - 4.0
Workout – 4.3
Health – 4.9
Attitude – 4.9
Motivation – 4.7
So I just heard that STDs run ramped in retirement homes… So remember to wrap it up old school.
Today was another productive day at work. I’m starting to get anxious about getting my marketing materials back from the copywriter. I don’t know how much I should go into right now… so.
Tomorrow… wait… this is about today…
I had an excellent workout today… I’ve been working on building up my stamina so I can squeeze more than blood miltown’s head next time I see him 
The week of the turkey is now upon us. I’m looking forward to getting my grub on come Thursday. Mom better make mashed potatoes this year… otherwise I’ll raise hell >:)
On Friday, I’m going to fry a turkey and have Thanks Giving part 2 with the neighbors. Gonna actually try the Cajun seasoning for the first time. I’ll let you know how it turns out.
As I was making dinner tonight, I kinda got the itch to throw a holiday party… Maybe a Christmas Eve, Eve party… the 23rd. Not sure what the rest of you guys are doing, but let me know if this sounds like something you might be down for. I’m not gonna rock it out like I did last year… 600 bucks on food and liquor, and a whole lot of miscommunication. I’m thinking pot luck style… paper plates, and solo cups.
Time to hang it up ladies and gentlemen.
Gotta get my 6-8.
Uncategorized19 Nov 2006 01:44 pm
Hard heads gotta Feel it to Believe it!
Mojo - 4.0
Workout – 4.3
Health – 4.9
Attitude – 4.9
Motivation – 4.4
Take a good look at the title… Is this you?
I just gonna ramble for a little bit…
I rented Nacho Libre… I try not to have expectations for movies, because most of the time you end up letting yourself down… I didn’t think that movie was very good/funny.
Right now I am in the process of getting a sample copy of the new Lupe Fiasco album, Food and Liquor. Gotta see what all of the hype is about.
I can’t believe Thanks Giving is next week, I can’t believe Christmas is just around the corner. This last year has gone by so fast… what have you done with your life? I’m asking you… not me. A lot has changed for me in the last 12 months. I actually feel like I am in a totally different place, for the better. If I could only sell my 5 unit before the end of the year…lol
Can’t wait to see what the next 12 holds!
It’s Sunday morning so I can’t exactly fill out the Robometer… So I’m off to do my day, and I’ll be back to let you know how it goes.
Back from the gym and feelin great.
I’m gonna try to make the best of what’s left of this bitch.
Flickr
Food
Apatment
Sleep
Peace
Uncategorized17 Nov 2006 11:34 pm
21 mins Before
Mojo - 4.1
Workout – 4.0
Health – 4.8
Attitude – 4.9
Motivation – 5
They say that you shouldn’t throw stones if you live in a glass house.
Let me tell you all a bedtime story…
There once was a lady who used to can tomatoes. She was exceptional at what she did, or so she was lead to believe. Don’t let it go to your head. One day her boss comes to her and tells her that the tomato business might be drying up… I’m sure he offered her work elsewhere under the umbrella, but it might have included a pay cut. So thinking she is the shit at running the canned tomato business, she decides to start a business on her own painting houses. Several months after starting… the painting biz goes belly up. 3 years later… guess who is back canning tomatoes… not head of the department, but working in it. In the three years that has passed, the idea of caning tomatoes is the same, but the technique has changed – plus 5x the work. Can’t teach an old dog new tricks. I can only imagine what her poor boss has to go though… frustrating at the least. Oh, I failed to mention, tomato canning is now under the same management as the growers.
Here is the kicker… our main character in the story tries to give the head mufugger in charge advice on how to run the business.
The reality of the situation is… there is a huge difference between running a business and being a secretary, however glorified the position is.
Stay in Skool
Not sure what is going on this weekend, but I do plan on getting some much needed rest… I hope.
Robo
Uncategorized15 Nov 2006 11:04 pm
Like a Lion
Mojo - 4.5
Workout – 4.5
Health – 4.7
Attitude – 4.5
Motivation – 4.5
Today was a good day as you can probably tell by looking at the Robometer! I’ve caught up on all of my accounting issues at work, and have some possible new clients lined up. I’ve put into place a plan that I have dubbed the name, Operation Greenbacks (shout out to MF Doom). It’s coming along nicely, and if all goes well, will result in me putting some more greenback into my pocket. I have to say… putting together a marketing plan is hard work, but I love the challenge… I live for this shit… lol.
Today I checked out my email and found out that I have a new Flickr friend. She’s the one that taught me, that it’s not the size that counts, but the motion… I mean the ability… What I meant to say is; it’s not how expensive your camera is, but the eye behind it. Check out her account under my profile. She captures the moment well.
Thanks for inviting me, and welcome.
Time to hit the showers
Flickr update coming soon to a computer screen near you.
Uncategorized14 Nov 2006 09:54 pm
The Beast
Mojo - 4.5
Workout – 4.9
Health – 4.6
Attitude - 4
Motivation - 4
Nothing like coming home from a hard day at work, sitting down on your couch, and watching your TV.
I once read somewhere that you should leave as small a footprint as possible on the environment (negatively speaking)… Well… what about someone else’s environment? Is it OK to shit in someone else’s back yard? I don’t understand people who think this is ok, and pity those who know not what they do. A word to the wise… when co-occupying another’s space, it’s best to be a ninja in the night.
The beast within… Some of you know about me and the snapage. It only comes about every few years or so and usually ends up being a pretty good story to tell. Well… it used to happen every two years. I have to say it has been at least 4 years since the last episode. I have never been proud of the events that occurred in these bouts of uncontrollable rage, and always spent several days afterwards trying to figure out how to suppress those reactions. Be Still. For some crazy reason, negative emotion and physical response are a tightly knit package with me. Scream someone’s head off, or turn into the black hulk and demo a room. I think I have done a good job of keeping myself from reaching that edge lately, but for the onlookers, I appear to be emotionless. Is this bad?
To go deeper is to know me…
Peace out.
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